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Then the pleasantries turned into long email conversations.

Anyway, the association of flowers, spring, youth, and women is not modern and were yet considered in ancient culture, such as the Chloris in ancient Greece, or Flora (deity) in ancient Roman empire, including Floralia festival, and in other older poems, such as the Song of Solomon: “Arise, my darling, my beautiful one, come with me. The fig tree forms its early fruit; the blossoming vines spread their fragrance.

I’m getting to be Emma outside of just my bedroom and my blog.

And even though I might not legally change my name to Emma Austin, getting to be her outside of my immediate comfort zone is teaching me how to be myself.

There’s a lot to work out and sort out, and that’s a big part of what makes this comfortable. Austin does respect my privacy (and Rob’s), I’m open about the whole thing, and that’s what keeps it from feeling like an affair instead of some extra hanky-panky and endless late-night email chains. Since I’m the one getting involved with someone else, I’ve been making sure my husband is feeling okay with what’s going on. I’m thinking about sex more (yes, even more than usual). I’ll admit that sometimes, it’s just getting me more acquainted with my vibrator or the fingertips on my index and middle fingers. Austin up late so I can push his head down between my legs and then I ride him until I forget my name. She’s a pen name, obviously, but she’s also a specific part of me. She’s the person I want to be with the rest of the world but I’m often too scared to express that side of me outside the confines of my safe, loving, married life. We’ve built trust, he’s broken down my barriers, and we’re creating sexual intimacy. It’s who I am under the hot mess that are all my emotional issues, irrational fears, and anxieties.

I’m keeping closer tabs on how he’s doing and paying more attention to his emotional needs. He wants to know how it’s going and to make sure this experience is a positive one for me. (Okay, so I still have those as Emma, but they’re getting better!

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